I've been hanging around this place since comment #3 or something as a snot-nosed, know-it-all 17 year old. Now I'm 31, married, and have a 4 month old (offically yesterday) at home (a home I "own" no less, after 10 years of vagabondery), and something resembling the beginning of a career. I'm not sure I ever really believed I'd end up here (or that I would want to), and I wouldn't be surprised if any of you said you'd thought the same along the way.
In a prior FKB that I have tried in vain to find, I definitely remember commenting that my greatest fear of any potential fatherhood for me would be not bonding properly with my kid. So far, I think we're bonded pretty good. But there are times where she's screaming and I think "Why? I chose this why?" I have trouble calming her sometimes. A lot falls on my wife, who it seems can calm the baby instantly. It makes me feel like a bad father and husband, someone who doesn't know his kid and can't pull his weight.
Sure, I know how to warm up a bottle and give it to her. I can change a diaper no problems, install a carseat, set up the monitor. But as to my child's emotional well-being, I feel like I know less than anything. She smiles when she sees me after work, but after the nth screaming fit that I fail to calm and my wife quiets instantly, I fear the worst - that I am just emotionally lacking and failing my kid.